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At the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one more test, not winning one more verdict, or not closing one more deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a friend, a child, or a parent. — Barbara Bush

So absolutely true. I constantly wonder if I’m really doing the right thing for me in this life. I’ve loved this college experience, I really did. And I know it will open a lot of doors. The biggest question is, are those the doors I really want to go through? Should I have gone to film school to work half my life editing movies and making small independent films that really matter to me? Should I have gone to an art school and found a real outlet for my art and passion? Should I have gone straight to work and found a simple, but fascinating job as a tour guide of the natural beauties of the country? I grew up (thanks Mom and Dad!) knowing that I have talents and brains that can get me “far” in life. But this “far” reeks with a corporate undertone that doesn’t quite seem to fit with the things I realize truly makes me happy. 

But I know I will do it. I will graduate college, go on a brief soul-searching, but come back to find that job that will make my college efforts seem worth it. I’ll put my degree into good use, I’ll work on (slowly) paying off my college loans, find the apartment, work towards the house and the car and only the occasional vacation. I’ll do it all as I’m “supposed” to. I just have to work on not losing myself in the process.